I am Charity. I am a mom of 5 kids. They are 12, 10, 8, 6, & 5 mths old. My 12, 8 yr old are ADHD. My 6 yr old is ADHD & Bipolar.

It is a very loud, crazy home that I live in day in & day out. I am on the go all the time. I can not get my kids to listen to me. I get lost in all of the crying, fighting, yelling, screaming, running around,mess making, disrespectful and very hurtful times.

Sometimes I feel as though I could really loose my mind. I do not hear my own thoughts any more. My heart breaks because I know that I gave life to my children with love. But I do not get it in return. I get yelled at, fussed at, laughed at, disrespected, and I do not feel loved by them.

I have asked, begged, and pleaded with them to try and help me to understand what it is that I do wrong as to not get that respect from them. But I get nothing.

I make rules they break them.

I give they take.

I cry they laugh.

I yell they scream.

I beg they fight.

I want love they show hate.

I am loosing a battle that never ends. It is ongoing and does not cease to stop.

So I long for the day that I can wake up on my own.

Go to the bathroom by myself.

Have clean dishes all day.

Talk on the phone with out interruptions.

Watch a movie and hear it at the same time.

Take a bath when I want to.

Sleep in if I feel like it.

Read a book and finish it.

Have a clean home all day.

Beable to live without medication just to get thru the day.

I look forward to being able to just have ME Time.

My Comments From: erniedoc 12 Jul 2008, 10:52 pm Wow that sounds rough.  I don't think begging and pleading is what you want  to be doing. I don't know the nature of your situation and neither am I an expert but you can't afford to show signs of weakness or they will get ahead of you.